It would seem that the treatment is relatively stable - sometimes better, sometimes worse. However, recently I have been feeling internal fears. At the end of May, the gallbladder was removed in the hospital in Piaseczno, and after returning home, shortness of breath began to worsen. They had occurred before, but rarely and did not cause much concern, so now I thought it was a side effect of intubation. Unfortunately, the shortness of breath was getting worse and I started having problems swallowing. There was a serious incident at night when I don't know why, but probably out of misunderstood fear, I didn't call an ambulance. An ultrasound performed the next day showed laryngeal infiltrates, and the shortness of breath was so severe that I was taken to the Bielański Hospital in Warsaw. Thanks to wonderful doctors, tracheectomy was avoided.

On July 1, I was discharged home in a stable condition, and on Monday, July 3, I had a follow-up visit and chemotherapy at the Ursynów Central Medical Center. Based on the documentation, the doctor decided to send me to the ward for further diagnostics and to establish a new treatment system. I asked to stay at home for a few days and spend them with my family, so I have to go to the hospital on July 10. I don't know why I'm postponing the inevitable, but I know that very difficult times await me, because it will be aggressive treatment. I am very afraid of pain, I don't know if I have enough strength to bear it.

The current photo included in this collection is very important to me. It was taken in May 2023 by the sea and I am there with my son, who was 5 years old when I got sick. Today he is 16 years old and constantly supports me not only in treatment, but in everything I do. His presence gives me strength and motivates me to fight.

Perhaps there is hope out there? I believe that together we can do it.

The disease is gradually developing and the current treatment in the drug program, to which I was qualified two years ago and received Qiskuali, is now no longer effective and the treatment has been changed.

Currently, I am on oral chemotherapy with Capecitabine Accord and Endoxan, which of course has a negative impact on my life so far. The side effects of the treatment are very similar to intravenous chemotherapy and I am very afraid of it. I often feel very weak, dizzy, vomiting, and my eyesight has deteriorated.

Another very difficult thing is the pain that accompanies me every day. This is due to the fact that it is an infiltrative cancer and the growing tumors press on the nerve endings in the arm, causing not only great pain but also paresis of the right arm. I am under the care of the Pain Management Clinic at the Oncology Center in Warsaw and after several changes to stronger and stronger medications, I am currently taking a drug - METHADONE HYDROCHLORIDE MOLENI.

Taking such strong painkillers resulted in the doctor giving me a total driving ban, as it is dangerous for me and other road users. Unfortunately, all this means that I am dependent on the help of other people in my everyday life - from getting to a doctor's appointment or examination to everyday functioning at home, where the simplest activities are difficult for me.

For an active person like me, all the restrictions and prohibitions are very difficult, and I cannot come to terms with them that at the age of 50 I am no longer independent.

When it comes to treatment costs, they are mainly related to the costs of travel to appointments and tests, painkillers, immune-boosting supplements, I need probiotics because I have digestive problems and stomach pain.

My hands require rehabilitation, the left one due to lymphedema caused by the lack of lymph nodes and the right one due to growing tumors.

I am grateful for the support I have received so far and I will be grateful for every penny donated to my cause.

I am 50 years old, husband, three children and two fantastic grandchildren.

I am a very active person in our rural community, I belong to the Rural Women's Circle, where, together with other ladies, I take part in various activities, often inventing and running them myself.

For many years I have been supporting people in difficult financial situations, not only in the immediate area. I organize collections, sometimes they are clothes, sometimes layettes for the future mother, or food parcels, toys and even furniture. My friends support me in this by bringing me various things that then go to those in need.

I like helping, it makes me feel like I'm needed. I never thought that one day I would have to ask for help myself.

The people in my life are very important to me, because if it weren't for them, I would probably have a hard time getting back up after my first diagnosis in 2012.

In 2012, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Radical mastectomy, chemotherapy, radiation, unbearable pain, burned skin, but paradoxically, the worst thing for me was the loss of my breasts and hair... you know, suddenly, as a young woman, I lost the main attributes of beauty, I felt terrible. I went through it for a long time, but I managed to get back on my feet and since then I have practically forgotten about the disease.

Unfortunately, in In January 2020, two tumors appeared in the supraclavicular nodes and in April there were already four... and my difficult, arduous journey between specialists began. It was even suggested that I had hypochondria... COVID happened on top of all this and access to treatments became even more difficult, which greatly delayed the entire treatment process.

I could tell many stories about medical mistakes, wrong diagnoses, unpleasant words I heard... There was a big problem with diagnosing the tumors, the fine-needle biopsy was unsuccessful, the lymph node collected during the first procedure was not properly examined and then material that was not mine was sent for further examination.

Fortunately, I found a fantastic doctor, Dr. Sławomir Mazur, who decided to take another lymph node for histopathological examination and confirmed that these were metastases from breast cancer and thanks to him, in September I was accepted into the drug program and I am undergoing targeted therapy with Kisqali powders. The powders are intended to fight cancer cells, but at the same time they destroy my body because they have many side effects, which is why I have had 3 extended breaks in the administration of the drug to allow my body to regenerate and improve the results of blood tests.

After cutting out the nodes I started having frequent, involuntary contractures in my right arm and in my left arm with all lymph nodes removed, it is constantly swollen and requires compression therapy and lymphatic drainage. That's why I have to have special bandages and compression sleeves, which have to be replaced 3-4 times a year to be effective, as well as rehabilitation, which I have had practically no experience in recent months due to the pandemic. I dream of buying a special lymphatic drainage device because then I could perform treatments at home and take care of my hand.

The last results of follow-up CT scans gave completely different results (one of them was done privately), so I asked for a PET scan, but I heard from the doctor that he "did not see any indications".

Meanwhile I am afraid that further metastases have occurred, I am worried about the condition of my hand, the growing tumors, I am often weak and have a headache. I would like to have a private PET scan done, which would indicate my further course of action. I also need treatments and preparations to support my body for further treatment... vitamins, supplements, treatments, visits, tests... it's a fortune I cannot afford.

My youngest son is only 14 years old. He understands the seriousness of the situation, he supports me very much, but he also worries about me so much that when choosing a high school, he does not want to be guided by his interests, but wants to go to the nearest school to our place of residence to be with me every day. I don't want him to be unable to fulfill his dream of being a soldier because of my illness.

I need to get better for him and my loved ones. There is still a lot of good things ahead of me, which I will continue to share!

Please help me enjoy life. I won the first fight, now I'm fighting for the second time.